‘Did you run a marathon this year?”
“No” - me
“Did you go on a date this year?”
“Noooo” - me
I was at a function and two different women asked me those questions. Eh! You guys actually read what I write. Hahahaha. I won’t lie, I was shook. 2024 humbled me. I went on ZERO (0) dates. I did not get close to running a marathon. My online courses, podcasts recordings died with the rise of load shedding. Shrug. To be honest, my greatest achievement of 2024 was surviving depression. Right now I can smile from the depths of my soul. It’s a miracle.
What scared me to my core was when I stopped dreaming. This meant I did not have a reason to wake up the next day. That place was hollow, it was dark, it was void of emotion.
Now that I have started to recover it is like all the emotions have rushed back with such a force and I feel everything so intensely. I am so in love, some days it almost pains. Not in love with a man (Lord knows no one has looked in my direction this year), Noooo - I am in love with life, I am in love with me.
Though, my stint in depression also made me realise that I don’t have people to do life with. My immediate family live in a different country, my friends live in other towns and countries and my teenage son wants to hang out with his cool friends. It’s just me, my books and music. This is not something that I have chosen on purpose.
I believe God has isolated me for a reason.
It’s like I have been called to become something. As if I have been given permission to achieve something in the stillness. I guess I am yet to find out exactly what that is.
Hmm this year I was also told by multiple people that I behave like a white woman. I am not sure if it’s a compliment or an insult. What does that mean?
One went further on to say, “You are such a free spirit.”
Okay.
In the spirit of freedom, as I walk my fourty first year, I shall not make any bold statements about what I want to achieve in 2025. Instead, I shall let my heart lead me to be delightfully surprised.
I do ask that if you see any writing opportunities, please send them my way.
I am also excited to work with more people one on one to amplify their personal brands.
As always reach out if you would like to collaborate on anything. I am willing to contribute but not lead (says the alpha femme. Hmm).
This is what I have learned from 2024 and is my hope for you in 2025:
Never stop dreaming. Fight to keep your dreams alive. Think about them often and align your actions to make them happen.
Appreciate the people you get to do life with more. Let them know you love them frequently. Say thank you with ease and cherish the moments you spend together.
To a fantastic 2025.
Happy New Year Hun.
May you love yourself flaws n all and live the life you absolutely desire.
Lots of Love
Chulu
By the way 2024 was not an all round disaster. It was actually brilliant. Check it out.
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